|Camellia's - oil on canvas - 30 x 30" - $900
That is an expression my mother used all the time! She would say it after a cup of coffee & the newspaper, while hoisting herself from her chair, she would say it when she jumped out of bed in the mornings; she summoned it loudly and joyfully! I came to know that it meant she intended to go forward in some way to tackle a project or the day or the next few minutes with renewed vigor.
This painting was languishing in my studio for the past few weeks needing some sort of resolution. I was all out of ideas for where to go next with it. I kept procrastinating for two reasons, one was a good one, it needed to dry before I worked into it again, but that only let me off the hook for a week or so...the other reason was I really didn't know what to do next!
That's when I realized that I was totally missing the point. Painting is not always about knowing what to do next. It's about allowing the play to begin, and trusting it's enough, finding my way for a few more hours or minutes or whatever my heart thinks is right for now. I squeezed out my paint. "Onwards!" I could hear those words plainly in my mind's ear. It will be my mother's birthday tomorrow, she always liked the fact that she and the Queen were born on the same day (2 years apart). My mother would have been 92!